Hope starts small.
Like a thin winged bird unfurling from its nest for the first time.
I’m learning there is some kind of secret in this brokenness, something sacred to follow winding down the cave walls towards a halo in the distance.
Something to be learned here. About life. About myself.
In the breathing in and letting go. In the exhale.
There is no short cut to happiness.
You have to wake up.
You have to do something every day that makes you happy.
And perhaps scares you.
Trying out that new trail on your own. Going to a dance class. Calling a friend you haven’t talked to in a while. Beginning the words of that book.
Writing someone a loving note even though they might not return it.
Praying in that one spot of sunlight.
Choosing to have faith today instead of despair.
Forcing yourself to go outside and breathe in fresh air.
Hoping.
Letting yourself believe in goodness again.
And eventually, one day you realize you are more happy then sad, and there is still a big wide world to be lived out there, whether or not you have the thing you so desperately want.
Today in San Francisco there is a little 5 year old boy who has been fighting leukemia since he was 20 months old. He is finally in remission and his dream was to become Batman for a day. So through MakeAWish foundation, the city of San Francisco has turned itself into Gotham, and this little boy will live out his dream of rescuing a damsel in distress. Over 12,000 people volunteered to help out.
Perhaps that hope that he would someday wear a cape costume is what kept him alive, perhaps it was the faith of his parents that he would recover.
I know it cost them, to believe, in the face of such raw truth as their little son’s hair falling out.
What this says to me is we want to hope.
We want to fight against that dark wave that meets us in the morning with the reality of our circumstance.
We want to believe in goodness. And we can.
We want to believe dreams do come true.
And they do.
